This is dedicated to my Dad! The Greatest man I have ever known!!
Daddy,
I would give up all, just to have you ALWAYS there. You were a gift from God for me in all He designed in you, and so I would maybe make it through. And know, you were there for a big reason and all God showed me in that (and what they couldn't see in you too). A SPECIAL Dad like no other, because of my PAIN. I will never forget all the times we spent together and with family. Especially by the water, and the fishing trips, barbecues we had and beaches we went to. As well as the long vacation trips we took that were SO much fun (and all the times spent together at the restaurants). How you would build things too and I was there to assist you. It was fun and amazing being there with you, especially the awesome holidays we spent together. Thank you Dad for ALL you did and were there for me for those times. I just NEED you even more now. You always REMEMBERED and saw something no one else could EVER see. I hope God helped you see the FULL picture of me, and the pain you saw in my eyes. You said to me long ago from far away, that I was like no one else in this world and then you cried. It broke my heart. I hope you know that I NEVER wanted to be away. But things that caused me PAIN and scared me even more, and could never understand fully WHY. I know now WHY that most still can't see, but you would have seen and known what's true in me (especially now).
Thank you Daddy for always trusting and believing in me, and how you made me feel inside (What a Feeling). For the respect you always gave me. But I know you missed me more. You often said to me, you wanted me to be happy. However, I could never be, when SO much was against me. I'm SO sorry I never made it back home in time to you, it's tearing me up inside. :( I still can't believe you're gone, I'm devastated and feel SO much more alone. :( I still have my letter to you, the one I was going to send before I saw you again. I know you tried to wait for me, like you always have before. But so many things have been wrong from the start and A LOT was not under my control. Not where I was supposed to be, but you knew I was running. What has also kept me here for a long time trapped that's been wrong and destructive even more (VERY painful and toxic, and from not knowing what to do). Not much help, assistance or TRUE understanding from this, and THE OTHER PART that's fading me away. :( It hasn't been good for me, just MORE scared and frozen inside. I never meant to hurt you if I did, because you didn't know things fully. I hope you understand the FULL truth in me NOW and for being gone SO long. From things I NEVER understood myself and the pain you ALWAYS saw.
I prayed to God to show you the complete truth from what I know you are. There is NO ONE like you Dad and there NEVER will be. Not because you're my Daddy and what you did for me. But because of everything that YOU ARE and were an AMAZING father, and all God showed me about you. I am BEYOND blessed for having YOU as my Daddy. You are the light that helped me see from the darkness that kept me scared, and you were always there. The strength that helped me keep going from SO many fears and hurt throughout the past, and what I still have now inside. :( You kept me together through this painful walk in life I couldn't understand, and I ALWAYS needed you. Without you Dad, I'm missing even more. I can't truly go on without you, because you have ALWAYS been my strength, my light and the BIGGEST reason why life meant more. You have ALWAYS been my hero and bigger than any star. Thanks for teaching me so much and all the fun things we did. I still remember all with you like it wasn't that long ago. You were always happy, even when I could see something sad in you too. But I knew you were constantly concerned about me so I would never fall. Your smile and your jokes is what kept me going too, that gave me joy and happy moments inside. Mostly, it was when I was there with you and you listened. I love you Daddy and miss you SO much I can't completely put it into words, even though I haven't made it home yet. I just want to hug you SO MUCH. It will NEVER be the same or better for me without you Dad, because you were the closest to understanding me. And that this, is SO MUCH different than all others.
You are the most AMAZING father and man I have ever known. Everything that you ARE and WERE. Thank you for caring and loving me SO much like you did, I ALWAYS felt it. All you did for ME, I can't ever forget. For ALWAYS protecting and worrying about me too. You have ALWAYS been my HEART Dad and that will NEVER change. You are the one that kept me going from this deep, lost and excruciating pain, as time went on. I just can't ever say good-bye to you and can't imagine life without you. From those signs about you that followed my path when you were still there, because of God. I wish I could have showed you what I mean, but hope you saw the truth in me. It started when God awakened me and showed me what I was, from my massive fears of feeling SO alone and lost. I KNOW you would have been there longer if I made it back to you in what I know. I'm SO sorry Dad if I ever made you sad, because you never knew the complete truth of everything I was going through. What you were supposed to fully know face to face too. But it's the TIME you passed away that showed me that you finally knew. It's from that sign I represent that was with you at the end.
You Dad, were the ONLY ONE that could see something different in me, but couldn't put you in that position. That I was like no one else in life and none alike. What you said to me, but no one else ever saw all that much. It lost me more and couldn't trust a lot, but ALWAYS trusted you. What you were trying to understand, as was I and in all my feelings. Those things that shattered me the most, that kept me slowly dying and parted from the soul. What took my self-control away. They've taken EVERYTHING away and beat me inside, but they didn't think much about it (especially THE OTHER PART who let them take over). I've been beset by LIES that suffocated the life within me. It's because of this complete connection from the OTHER SIDE who mostly forgot. Things of God (cose di Dio) that not many believe in, that I'm going through. In this powerful, painful truth of God when I'm living it. When this is SO MUCH different than others. A desolation no one can understand. This isn't about beliefs or who believes what.? This is about the reality of God and what I'm enduring that's real! What was shown from my DEEP PAIN of me being SO lost and different, but ALWAYS felt God near me since I was a child (the presence and the protection). Those with simple minds can't understand this truth. Who have NO comprehension of things of God when they're shown. And from some that are hurtful, because they can't SEE or understand the REALITY of this, or just refuse to. Not wanting to LOOK from their ways that are the same. This is NOT something picked, and how do you get help from something God did when He showed what was supposed to be done. They can't feel this torture Dad and not many believe me, unless they see it physically. And all the lies that have taken my life (Bugie che hanno preso la mia vita!)! Didn't give me a chance to move forward in ANY WAY. Which has left me unable to do much in life without that missing part for so long that's connected completely. What has been EXCRUCIATING and has interfered with my decision making process from fears. It's from the PAINFUL pull of the soul (dell'anima) from the OTHER SIDE that has affected me badly, who has NEVER truly cared (and still "acts" for others with his lies and THEIRS). When it falls, it all falls completely from the division that God made right that went wrong (and NOT in a good way for the OTHER PART). You know God NEVER lies, but MOST people do. And works in mysterious ways for His reasons ( but you should know why). The soul can also SEE and TELL the other part that's connected as well, and KNOW you would have seen and KNOWN it up close (and because I'm your daughter). Things that deal with you too through this connection in all God did. But the OTHER PART has become an evil LIAR (BUGIARDO) in all THEY control him to do in that world, and lets it be done. What SEVERELY affects the rest of the soul that causes a major impact from the OTHER SIDE that I share. It's from this connection that is a GREAT misery for me and has always been, because of what he has become and forgot (La mia miseria). From being brainwashed enough to believe more in that world and THEIR evil ways, instead of the rest of the soul. But FEELS the impact inside that gets bigger everyday that will never be fixed, because of him (and for leaving me HERE this way in SO MUCH pain for SO long, wishing this connection NEVER existed). In a place of MASSIVE distress. :(
My life Dad, has been controlled by a big evil game, until they get THEIR OWN. What is still happening now that has been VERY harmful and destructive as time goes on for me. That is soul-sucking in everything and permeates through your entire being. No one is going through anything like this, on top of everything else. There is NO pain like this that's like NO OTHER! Just more destroyed and paralyzing within the soul now, from having NOTHING to heal, help or EVER thrive in life from the different side that has NEVER paid attention. And the CONTINUOUS crushing and pull from the other side that has ALWAYS been gone, as well as caused SO much damage you can actually see now. What's even more devastating, is that I have NO HELP or TRUE understanding from anywhere. Just abandon and trapped in my current situation that is SO different from all others. I hope you know now by God, all that I was dealing with in life, and still am. Which is the WORST kind of pain anyone could EVER feel that loses you even more. But know now, that losing YOU, is the WORST PAIN I have EVER known! :(
I'm sorry Dad I wasn't able to help you like I was going to (I know you would have still been here). Running out of time. And SO Sorry I lost so much more time with you, because of everything I'm dealing with (that is unlike ANYTHING anyone has ever dealt with). Something I NEVER wanted to happen, is to be away from you so long. What I've MISSED EVERY DAY. But an even bigger gift, is to be with you ALWAYS. So much I still needed to show you and all I needed to say. I HOPE God helped you see what He did in me (for His purpose and will at His time), including my DEEP PAIN and all that's trapped me this way. :( I feel more scared and alone without you Dad and miss you SO much! I needed you THEN and need you ALWAYS Dad!
I love you ALWAYS and FOREVER Daddy!!
Your Daughter
APRIL 17, 1937 - JUNE 28, 2019
Daddy,
I would give up all, just to have you ALWAYS there. You were a gift from God for me in all He designed in you, and so I would maybe make it through. And know, you were there for a big reason and all God showed me in that (and what they couldn't see in you too). A SPECIAL Dad like no other, because of my PAIN. I will never forget all the times we spent together and with family. Especially by the water, and the fishing trips, barbecues we had and beaches we went to. As well as the long vacation trips we took that were SO much fun (and all the times spent together at the restaurants). How you would build things too and I was there to assist you. It was fun and amazing being there with you, especially the awesome holidays we spent together. Thank you Dad for ALL you did and were there for me for those times. I just NEED you even more now. You always REMEMBERED and saw something no one else could EVER see. I hope God helped you see the FULL picture of me, and the pain you saw in my eyes. You said to me long ago from far away, that I was like no one else in this world and then you cried. It broke my heart. I hope you know that I NEVER wanted to be away. But things that caused me PAIN and scared me even more, and could never understand fully WHY. I know now WHY that most still can't see, but you would have seen and known what's true in me (especially now).
Thank you Daddy for always trusting and believing in me, and how you made me feel inside (What a Feeling). For the respect you always gave me. But I know you missed me more. You often said to me, you wanted me to be happy. However, I could never be, when SO much was against me. I'm SO sorry I never made it back home in time to you, it's tearing me up inside. :( I still can't believe you're gone, I'm devastated and feel SO much more alone. :( I still have my letter to you, the one I was going to send before I saw you again. I know you tried to wait for me, like you always have before. But so many things have been wrong from the start and A LOT was not under my control. Not where I was supposed to be, but you knew I was running. What has also kept me here for a long time trapped that's been wrong and destructive even more (VERY painful and toxic, and from not knowing what to do). Not much help, assistance or TRUE understanding from this, and THE OTHER PART that's fading me away. :( It hasn't been good for me, just MORE scared and frozen inside. I never meant to hurt you if I did, because you didn't know things fully. I hope you understand the FULL truth in me NOW and for being gone SO long. From things I NEVER understood myself and the pain you ALWAYS saw.
I prayed to God to show you the complete truth from what I know you are. There is NO ONE like you Dad and there NEVER will be. Not because you're my Daddy and what you did for me. But because of everything that YOU ARE and were an AMAZING father, and all God showed me about you. I am BEYOND blessed for having YOU as my Daddy. You are the light that helped me see from the darkness that kept me scared, and you were always there. The strength that helped me keep going from SO many fears and hurt throughout the past, and what I still have now inside. :( You kept me together through this painful walk in life I couldn't understand, and I ALWAYS needed you. Without you Dad, I'm missing even more. I can't truly go on without you, because you have ALWAYS been my strength, my light and the BIGGEST reason why life meant more. You have ALWAYS been my hero and bigger than any star. Thanks for teaching me so much and all the fun things we did. I still remember all with you like it wasn't that long ago. You were always happy, even when I could see something sad in you too. But I knew you were constantly concerned about me so I would never fall. Your smile and your jokes is what kept me going too, that gave me joy and happy moments inside. Mostly, it was when I was there with you and you listened. I love you Daddy and miss you SO much I can't completely put it into words, even though I haven't made it home yet. I just want to hug you SO MUCH. It will NEVER be the same or better for me without you Dad, because you were the closest to understanding me. And that this, is SO MUCH different than all others.
You are the most AMAZING father and man I have ever known. Everything that you ARE and WERE. Thank you for caring and loving me SO much like you did, I ALWAYS felt it. All you did for ME, I can't ever forget. For ALWAYS protecting and worrying about me too. You have ALWAYS been my HEART Dad and that will NEVER change. You are the one that kept me going from this deep, lost and excruciating pain, as time went on. I just can't ever say good-bye to you and can't imagine life without you. From those signs about you that followed my path when you were still there, because of God. I wish I could have showed you what I mean, but hope you saw the truth in me. It started when God awakened me and showed me what I was, from my massive fears of feeling SO alone and lost. I KNOW you would have been there longer if I made it back to you in what I know. I'm SO sorry Dad if I ever made you sad, because you never knew the complete truth of everything I was going through. What you were supposed to fully know face to face too. But it's the TIME you passed away that showed me that you finally knew. It's from that sign I represent that was with you at the end.
You Dad, were the ONLY ONE that could see something different in me, but couldn't put you in that position. That I was like no one else in life and none alike. What you said to me, but no one else ever saw all that much. It lost me more and couldn't trust a lot, but ALWAYS trusted you. What you were trying to understand, as was I and in all my feelings. Those things that shattered me the most, that kept me slowly dying and parted from the soul. What took my self-control away. They've taken EVERYTHING away and beat me inside, but they didn't think much about it (especially THE OTHER PART who let them take over). I've been beset by LIES that suffocated the life within me. It's because of this complete connection from the OTHER SIDE who mostly forgot. Things of God (cose di Dio) that not many believe in, that I'm going through. In this powerful, painful truth of God when I'm living it. When this is SO MUCH different than others. A desolation no one can understand. This isn't about beliefs or who believes what.? This is about the reality of God and what I'm enduring that's real! What was shown from my DEEP PAIN of me being SO lost and different, but ALWAYS felt God near me since I was a child (the presence and the protection). Those with simple minds can't understand this truth. Who have NO comprehension of things of God when they're shown. And from some that are hurtful, because they can't SEE or understand the REALITY of this, or just refuse to. Not wanting to LOOK from their ways that are the same. This is NOT something picked, and how do you get help from something God did when He showed what was supposed to be done. They can't feel this torture Dad and not many believe me, unless they see it physically. And all the lies that have taken my life (Bugie che hanno preso la mia vita!)! Didn't give me a chance to move forward in ANY WAY. Which has left me unable to do much in life without that missing part for so long that's connected completely. What has been EXCRUCIATING and has interfered with my decision making process from fears. It's from the PAINFUL pull of the soul (dell'anima) from the OTHER SIDE that has affected me badly, who has NEVER truly cared (and still "acts" for others with his lies and THEIRS). When it falls, it all falls completely from the division that God made right that went wrong (and NOT in a good way for the OTHER PART). You know God NEVER lies, but MOST people do. And works in mysterious ways for His reasons ( but you should know why). The soul can also SEE and TELL the other part that's connected as well, and KNOW you would have seen and KNOWN it up close (and because I'm your daughter). Things that deal with you too through this connection in all God did. But the OTHER PART has become an evil LIAR (BUGIARDO) in all THEY control him to do in that world, and lets it be done. What SEVERELY affects the rest of the soul that causes a major impact from the OTHER SIDE that I share. It's from this connection that is a GREAT misery for me and has always been, because of what he has become and forgot (La mia miseria). From being brainwashed enough to believe more in that world and THEIR evil ways, instead of the rest of the soul. But FEELS the impact inside that gets bigger everyday that will never be fixed, because of him (and for leaving me HERE this way in SO MUCH pain for SO long, wishing this connection NEVER existed). In a place of MASSIVE distress. :(
My life Dad, has been controlled by a big evil game, until they get THEIR OWN. What is still happening now that has been VERY harmful and destructive as time goes on for me. That is soul-sucking in everything and permeates through your entire being. No one is going through anything like this, on top of everything else. There is NO pain like this that's like NO OTHER! Just more destroyed and paralyzing within the soul now, from having NOTHING to heal, help or EVER thrive in life from the different side that has NEVER paid attention. And the CONTINUOUS crushing and pull from the other side that has ALWAYS been gone, as well as caused SO much damage you can actually see now. What's even more devastating, is that I have NO HELP or TRUE understanding from anywhere. Just abandon and trapped in my current situation that is SO different from all others. I hope you know now by God, all that I was dealing with in life, and still am. Which is the WORST kind of pain anyone could EVER feel that loses you even more. But know now, that losing YOU, is the WORST PAIN I have EVER known! :(
I'm sorry Dad I wasn't able to help you like I was going to (I know you would have still been here). Running out of time. And SO Sorry I lost so much more time with you, because of everything I'm dealing with (that is unlike ANYTHING anyone has ever dealt with). Something I NEVER wanted to happen, is to be away from you so long. What I've MISSED EVERY DAY. But an even bigger gift, is to be with you ALWAYS. So much I still needed to show you and all I needed to say. I HOPE God helped you see what He did in me (for His purpose and will at His time), including my DEEP PAIN and all that's trapped me this way. :( I feel more scared and alone without you Dad and miss you SO much! I needed you THEN and need you ALWAYS Dad!
I love you ALWAYS and FOREVER Daddy!!
Your Daughter
APRIL 17, 1937 - JUNE 28, 2019